Recently, I've been stressing myself out with work-related thoughts. See, I admit, I am not really stressed with work. I am stressed at work. I used to work for a highly dynamic and driven team. You could feel everyone's passion for excellence. I did have a very micro-manager boss, I did cry a couple of times because I was not really sure why she had to be hard on everybody. She did not like to rest. In fact, I don't think she knows what rest is. I often felt being pushed to this line, this goal, then each time I am so close to reaching that goal, it'll suddenly move. A moving target.
So I looked for other career opportunities. I can't see myself working in the private sector, so I narrowed my search to the government. A year has passed and I am now enjoying the perks of having a 4-day work week. I have the pleasure of always enjoying a long weekend. But my brain's just drying out, like my brain cells are eating each other out of starvation, out of thirst. This hunger for knowledge is just too much to bear. I can read all the books I want, all the news I want, be updated as much as I want to. But I miss the dynamics of a team, a team so eager to learn. I miss that feeling of getting up the next day, not knowing the new people I'll meet and new concepts I'll learn.
But the 4-day work week, with a better compensation package, is just too hard to let go. If I were still single, I'd definitely stay with the team because I have time in my hands. Now, I have to think of my baby girl first. I want to be the best mom to her. I want to spend more time with her. I
Yes folks, I am still blessed. I may not have everything I want. But I do have everything God wants me to have. He alone knows what I must have at this point in my life.
I have a very loving hubby. (Who bought me a lovely tote bag despite being such a minimalist/kuripot! Love you beb!) I have a very sweet, adorable, hyper, smart li'l kiddo. (Who is growing more and more like me.) I have the warmest family and the craziest friends!
Thank you, Lord. <3 I should not worry about anything. Sagot mo ko, diba Lord? :)
